Right where you belong

There’s this kinda tension in the waiting that feels like you’re running out of time…though there’s nothing really telling you that specifically—it’s this inner turmoil felt.

I’ve been here a while.

For me the grand abyss is beautiful and exciting to a point…and then I just wanna take the jump and fly to next season. Cut my losses and get on to the new thing to avoid the feelings attached to the old.

But as I’m learning, life is much more of a journey than a destination. We make plans, have desires and expectations but God is our Sovereign guide. He will pivot our steps when there’s a need for an edit or change. And for me I realize that’s a lot of my life.

I recently heard a pastor say “Without God we can’t and without us, He won’t.”

Made me stop and realize that partnering with God demands a reverent and surrendered response from me to His leading in my life. There is both a trusting Him in this season and a pursuing His plan. Both required a response from me; to follow and sometimes initiate.

We can look to when God directed Israel to follow His direction, in Deuteronomy 11:22-25 “For if you will be careful to do all this commandment that I command you to do, loving the Lord your God, walking in all his ways, and holding fast to him, then the Lord will drive out all these nations before you, and you will dispossess nations greater and mightier than you. Every place on which the sole of your foot treads shall be yours. Your territory shall be from the wilderness to the Lebanon and from the River, the river Euphrates, to the western sea. No one shall be able to stand against you. The Lord your God will lay the fear of you and the dread of you on all the land that you shall tread, as he promised you.”

There’s a sensitive language here of being careful to follow God’s commands. God is reminding Israel that they have a part to play in following His commands. They have a choice to make…will they choose to follow His ways and gain life to the fullest? Or will they choose to dismiss God’s commands and make their own pathway.

I can feel their tension right here and now in my life. I know that I have a daily choice to trust God and continue to wait or I can give into my humanity and resolve to the anxiety knocking at my door about the future. God gives us a choice in how to wait. What I’ve learned is that the peace He gives is never cheap and always worth my effort. And with time joy bursts forth to, because He is so good to me.

-jdw